So, life seems to have changed a lot since the last time I was here. And I feel okay about that.

Joe and I are finally working towards actually being with each other. Finally. Feels like it's been a long time coming, feels unsteady, feels right, and feels warm in my body every time we're together. :)

And I'm trying to change myself internally. Through food. Again. I'm just trying to become better at food and eating. So I've been trying to come up with some good ideas on how to become a better eater, maybe drop five pounds, and be hot enough that I can maybe not be afraid to let Joe take my picture.

So I've come up with some ideas:

Try to eat at least one completely raw meal a day.
Eat more protein.
Run (I've gotten good at this. I ran fifteen miles last week!)
Stop eating anything with white sugar built into it.

Joe's on a sugar cleanse for candida. And he lost fifteen pounds. Fast. And I'm proud of him. But my body didn't get the same results when I tried it. I felt great, but my body didn't change, weight-wise. And I started eating Joe sized portions of everything when I was around him. So...that didn't help. But I want to give the sugar cleanse another go and see what happens. But I also just ate sixteen or more tater tots and I kind of want to die now. I don't know what happens. I want to eat healthy all the time, but sometimes I just can't find anything else to eat.

But...I need to keep keeping on. Because I know that even if I don't lose any weight, I can get stronger. So I'm going to keep running and I'm going to go to a Pilates class tonight. So there is still good things to be done with my body.

It's funny. I've never had the desire to run before now. But I can't seem to shake it. I took the day off from exercise yesterday and I have to admit, I feel a little strange. Who knew that I could become a convert so quickly?

It's Monday, which there are only three more days of working before I head out on vacation!!!! I haven't been on vacation in SO LONG. And I'm excited. Joe and I are going to go over to his cabin in the Methow Valley for four whole days of relaxation and playing in the snow. It's also Joe's 32nd birthday. Funny to think that he was just about my age when we met. Funny how the years fly right by us. And when I met him, I used to think he was so old, he was definitely the subject of my teenage fascination. And now...he's turned into my best friend. It's amazing how much Joe and I have both changed and grown in the past six years. And now...our very first real getaway together. I'm just blissed out at the idea. :)

Gotta go shower and clean up for work and throw all my stuff in my bag for running and Pilates tonight. Can't wait to get back into it!